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nothing good for today...my mood was just fine for the past few daYS after that disaster lah...n now mood swing back...i dont know what to say/comment...i dont think that whatever i do, been appreciated..u know the things like..whatever it is, u r still wrong..still! n im so fed up with it...

im working n not that im lazing around..its just that im trying to take a deep breath..its not that im so relax..i got tonnes of work too and i know that..entahla..so fed up...so n so....

Paperwork

now i know the feelings when u have tonnes of paperwork to do...

i have to check final report for lina's work.., her posters, abstract...

finalized my conference paper

edit some part of my ergs proposal

finish up my report on my experiment..

feels like vomiting...keep on looking at the computer...got tired eyes as well...

Precipitates

Precipitates collected for each reactor

Hate VS Love

let me karang something okay?

i was thinking of something, what makes man wanna be with me for like more than 5 years???

its not like we r best friend but more than that, not together...it doesnt mean that we r dating each other as other couple/as lover...its just in the middle...

ive left these 2 guys, one i hate most, another one, i dont like him, i just can be his friend...not more than that...

The guy that i hate most-A

The guy that i can only b his friend-B

The guy i like now -C

Guy A, friends with him for more than 6 years....ding dong, like each other, break up, together again,fighting, now he have gf, so i left him...but he is coming back to me, want me back but at the same time gf is there...how can it be? its like so greedy, u want both..i say cannot...but still, he wants everything to be back to normal....with him, ive experienced quite a lot of heartache..so i dont want to take risk anymore...scared n tired...

Guy B, friends with him for 7 years...ding dong, i really dont like him..dnt know what it is or y, i just dont like him....ive tried to open up my heart for him but it just cant....n i know the sentences of u cant force love...same goes to me...even if im with him, only because of pity, not more than that..ive dumped him so many times but he just wont give up...Up to u lah, but im still his friend...no fighting...

Guy C, i dnt know y but i like him...since our 2nd meeting...but i just want to ignore the feelings coz im too scared to be in love again/to love someone which always end up hurting myself..im trying to play safe now...but cant forget him lah...everytime i look at his face, i kept smiling...oh no...it is so called love/or just like..? im not too sure bout that too...very dangerous lah..i want him so badly but not sure whether he likes me too or not..im scared that with my feelings, ill ruined the relationship and no more friends...what should i do? just wait??

Keropok lekor...

made from fish and flour...I like it, its from Terengannu..given by my colleague..she went for a trip, not sure what subject..anyway, thanks to her (NIK)...lovely, yummy..ive already boiled it and wanted to eat it with their special chili sauce...

Conference paper

writing up...finally, i did it...

Never ever underestimate on writing papers...doesnt matter what type of the paper; journal paper, conference paper, short communication, proposal....

Ive finished one...wooppps.....almost finishing one conference paper...entitled the removal of nickel through biological sulphide precipitation..just wish that my paper would be accepted in the Research Journal of Chemistry and environment with IF:0.323. I just could wish for it, coz im sending it late to organizer...So im going to present it in May..

okay..need to continue on with the paper as Prof has just returned it back to me just now...Need to edit some of it, only the english structure...n references...daaa..